There comes a time when you realize that your circumstances are bigger than you. What does that mean exactly? Well, it means to me that my divorce is just that, “my divorce”, but because of who I am and my assignment it is meant to serve many out of this pain. I could be mad at God because of these circumstances and the fall out which He allowed, but I can’t help but say, “Okay Lord. Okay.” I don’t shake my fist in resentment and I won’t dare tell you that I haven’t, but at this stage of this journey of healing from my divorce I am understanding that He has kept me. That has been invaluable to me.
This divorce in my opinion was stupid, senseless, and avoidable but, it was allowed. However it was necessary or God would not have allowed it. So what does one do with what God allows when one does not agree with it, or when it does not settle in our favor? Accept it? Try to get back at Him by not believing in Him anymore? Stop praising? Stop worshiping? What have you tried? I personally have tried all of them. No one could answer the questions I had. No one could comfort me. I needed my inner being touched. No one but God could do that, so I ended up right back where I started; asking God to help me understand it all.
So what happens now? Understanding. Acceptance. Forgiveness. Healing. An importation of vision. Hope. Peace. Rest. Permission to be happy. Permission to keep loving. The scripture says that GOD CAUSES EVERYTHING TO WORK TOGETHER FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE CHRIST. I take God at His word and hold Him to it by trusting Him. His word also says that HE HONORS HIS WORD ABOVE HIS NAME. I need to know that more than me knowing His name it is about Him keeping His word to me. He has a plan to proper me, he created me fearfully and wonderfully, and that He knew me before I was formed in my mother’s womb. Most of all, good or bad, He is willing to still be my God.
This is my encouragement in this season. Through the wilding out, the resentment, the anger, the regret; He is still willing to be my God and not only that, He is willing to still love me just as much as before. I am kept. I can’t fully answer why, but I know that EVERYTHING WILL WORK TOGETHER FOR MY GOOD. He knows that I am willing to be used through this process.
You won’t have the answer to every question, but EVERYTHING WILL WORK TOGETHER FOR YOUR GOOD. You are kept. He is still willing to love you fully. God is big enough to take your anger. Tell Him about it. He is waiting for you to ask why. It is okay. A real relationship with God will encompass questions and you will get answers. Your circumstances are bigger than you. “This” is bigger than the both of us.
I love you with the love of Christ. Be blessed.